Questions Questions Questions

I saw this idea game-thing over at Sheilah's World and it looked like fun. Mind you, it will only be fun if SOMEONE asks me some questions.

"I want everyone who reads this to ask me three questions, no more no less. Ask me anything you want and I will answer it. Then, I want you to go to your journal, copy and paste this allowing your friends (including myself) to ask you anything."

You know what? I don't even mind if you don't put this on your own blog. My blog is all about ice-cream and cotton-candy and slurpees (and funny memories and silly questions). If you want your blog to be about vegetables (and politics and technology), thats cool too. We all need a little variety. Still ... As long as you came to the Island, you may as well play in the "waves".

Waves

1. What is your biggest fear?

2. Who do you admire most in life?

3. What is your biggest accomplishment in life?

Sheilah | 05/08/2004 - 05:18 PM

"Biggest fear?"My biggest physical fear is DEFINITELY snakes. My biggest emotional fear is losing a child. So, I suppose that my ultimate big fear is visiting Africa and having a giant snake eat my child. (Oh, yeah, THERE'S a happy thought :(

"Biggest accomplishment?" NOT being my mother :)

"Most admired?" Well, there's lots of people I admire for different things. And does the question mean during my lifetime, or recent history, or total history? Hmmm. Here's the short list: I adore Winston Churchill for the sheer guts of it. One small fat man with a stutter saved the world, with God's own grace and a lot of nerve. I admire Pope JohnPaulIII (current pope) for his early resistance work against communism. Once again, a small man against overwhelming odds. I admire my grandfather-in-law for hiring Cubans when it was taboo. He did the right thing, even when it wasn't the easy thing. I admire Mary Vincent Price, who refused to die. I admire Billy Graham for the focus he's maintained for decades, especially in Europe where he was actively mocked and persecuted in the press when he started out. I admire my best-friend's mother because she fought tooth-and-nail to protect her children, for years, with little help from anyone at all. I especially admire the small force of RAF pilots during WWII who flew 72 hours with no sleep, so hopped up on drugs they couldn't blink, striving to diminish the enemy as much as they could before their certain death. I admire my dog Sam (yeah, a dog) for being willing to die to protect the children, for stepping into the breach when there was no other choice.

I suppose what they all have in common is sheer will and determination to do the right thing regardless of consequences in the face of overwhelming adversity. The nerve to draw a line in the sand, and announce "this far, and no farther". To be afraid, but to STILL refuse to yield or surrender. A certain something, an inner fire, a strength of spirit. Oh, to be strong enough to actually live the lyrics to the Impossible Dream!

To dream the impossible dream
To fight the unbeatable foe
To bear with unbearable sorrow
To run where the brave dare not go

To right the unrightable wrong
To love pure and chaste from afar
To try when your arms are too weary
To reach the unreachable star

This is my quest to follow that star
No matter how hopeless, no matter how far
To fight for the right
Without question or pause
To be willing to march into Hell
For a Heavenly cause
And I know, if I'll only be true
To this glorious quest
That my heart will lie peaceful and calm
When I'm laid to my rest

And the world will be better for this
That one man scorned and covered with scars
Still strove with his last ounce of courage
To fight the unbeatable foe
To reach the unreachable star

Lucy | 05/08/2004 - 07:06 PM

1. What is your greatest personal regret?
2. What's your heart's desire for your children? (separate or together)
3. What's your heart's desire for yourself?

Earth Girl | 05/11/2004 - 04:09 AM

At first, I thought "my greatest personal regret" would be hard. Then it dawned on me: Taking the Pill. THAT was the worst, most awful thing I have ever done. (And I have actually been a very petty, selfish, catty, its-ok-to-be-manipulative-for-their-own-good kinda person in the past so I have lots things to consider) But, taking the Pill was a nightmare. Low-dose my foot! At first I thought it was just me, but I finally broke and admitted to a friend that I thought I was losing my mind because I thought I was allergic to water. NO ONE is allergic to water. Well, she was too. Turns out that we were both freaking because the Pill made us sensitive to chlorine and our local water had tons of chlorine. And, the mood swings! I was so miserable and furious and then miserable that my husband (while standing under the big oak on 16th street) turned to me one day while we were walking back to the car and asked "Would you like a divorce?" I just looked at him, dropped my things on the sidewalk and started sobbing hysterically (and loudly). I think this alarmed him even more, not quite the reaction he was expecting. I remember him trying desperately to calm me down and reassuring me that he only wanted me to be happy and thought a divorce might make me happy. I don't remember how he managed to get me to the car. Our doctors repeatedly told us that it was all in our heads. Our pharmacist told us those Pills had been taken off the market. My thinking is "if there's nothing wrong with the Pill, why did the Pill get pulled?" Anyway, it took months and months to get the stuff out of my system. During that time I managed to practically alienate every single new in-law (except for his brother) and its been interesting trying to live down those really psycho first two years. On the other hand, if I had gotten pregnant earlier I wouldn't have the exact children I have now and thats unimaginable!

Hmmm. "Heart's desire for my chidren". At first I thought, thats easy -- Safe. But, thats not really true. There are lots of safe people that are miserable. Then, I thought -- Happy. But there are times that happiness is inappropriate, and limiting. Ah -- Faith. That's what I want most for my children, that they enjoy the luxury of having faith. The luxury of KNOWING there is a God, the security of being aware that God is holding you in the palm of his hand, the self-confidence from understanding that you are important to God, the joy from realizing that God loves you. If only I could give them Faith, then all the important and lasting good things would follow.


Greatest desire for myself? Thats hard. Very hard. Not because I don't know, but because perhaps I don't want to say. What if people laugh? or think I'm presumptuous? or hopeless? or ridiculous? (This could lead to a totally different desire -- that I could forget everything my Mother has said, and a totally different regret -- that I ever believed her in the first place, but thats neither here nor there because that would be to wish the destruction of my self/world and I am outrageously happy with my current life)

Ok, living on the edge, being brave -- my Heart's Desire for myself is to be a better Christian, and then a little more better, and more better, until finally I'm a good Christian all the way to the core. I think that if God can create worlds, he can jolly well fix me. It can't be as hard as making solar-systems. Well, I don't know how hard that solar-system-thing is and I do know that I'm rather obstinate, but still ... Think about it, when you give someone you really love a birthday gift, you want it to be the best gift that you can manage, right? Well, I figure that me-as-a-Christian is God's gift to Jesus. And God wants to give the best gift possible, and that involves fixing me. And my gift to Jesus can be the willingness to be fixed. Here's the interesting/selfish part, I think that being a better Christian will make me a happier person. God only wants good things for us, and he wants us to be good Christians, so therefore being a good Christian is good for me. Does that make sense?

Lucy | 05/11/2004 - 03:33 PM

May He grant you your heart's desire.

Funny response. Heartfelt response. That's why I visit regularly. Thank you.

Earth Girl | 05/11/2004 - 06:48 PM

Earth Girl,

Thanks! Regular visitors are nifty. Very, very nifty :)

Lucy | 05/12/2004 - 05:32 PM

I loved the way you answered that question, regarding your "hearts desire"....very cool, Lucy!

Sheilah | 05/18/2004 - 01:18 AM

i am a movie addict and i watch plenty of movie in just one night, that the greatest movie for me is Somewhere In Tome;

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